pathetique.

Pathetique in real life ain't nowhere near as beautiful as Beethovens. 

So I woke up feeling down. That really depressed me.  And my mind went in a downwards spiral telling me all the argh's about my life.  I don't have a proper job, i don't have a carrear, i don't have a love, i don't dare to express myself, i'm so freakin shy i'll never be able to create a deep relation to somone special, there is someone who has a crush on me but i'm not appreciating it, i'm getting old, my education is worth zip, even i'm too thin and i don't understand anything about life.


I worry to much today.

I've got the bluuuuueeeeeeees.

And. (the rest).

I retarded myself by drinking.  That's why i'm so opposed to drinking. Drinking doesn't help.