the discrepancy...

If you can understand the title of this blog (latency delay), you might be intrigued as this might be an interesting blog.  Then you have a look around, and find nothing vastly more interesting than anything you could have thought of yourself in one of those passed out from alterior substances not actually being able to think a single thought at all - situations.  That's how enormously humongous the discrepancy is between the pretensions of this blog and the actual blog, equally gigantic as my own inner outer discrepancy, between who i believe i can be entitled (Beethoven) and who i am (an working ant).

If you can't understand the title of this blog.  Well, welcome, join the club. it's exclusive, but you can always invite yourself.

The think-app

My head felt totally filled to the absolute limit with whatnots, no-good comments and things i'm not supposed to do but that i've kind of entrapped myself into doing by believing that it would make me feel better to do those things.  And i grew increasingly frustrated.  Now i've spent the wonderful weekend surfing the net, reading up, checking out and just being my true self (?)

1: I LOVE INTERNET.

2: I BELIEVE WE NEED TIME TO THINK (at least in the post post post modernistic society, nobody ever knows anything, hence the public confusion)

3:  INTERNET IS A VERY GOOD PLACE TO THINK ABOUT THINGS:  IT'S LIKE A THINK-APP.

stuff to do when broke (nonsense peptalk)

Ther's always things to do.

you can stay on internet
make things
talk to people.

That's pretty much it.  Of course it is possible to combine these things as well.  See, it's easy! Good luck!

between game and play there is always hard work!

Because i value quality and hard work i get stressed out, because i do my upmost very best without knowing weather it is good enough, or of any quality at all.

That's the hardship of being an human being i guess, we can't ever really know anything, and in the moments when we loose courage to believe there is a good future or something for us to do, we certainly get lost as there is no real facts we can hold on to - except for the one thing, that we can't ever really know anything for sure.

I saw the madam president of Liberia on television, she seems awfully clever and a very nice lady.  She said that she always tries to make people work hard to achieve stuff.  She must be right, Work hard!  Do whatever it takes, the sad fact is that the world still can go against you (at least i think the people in Liberia might know that fact) but anyhow you are better off having tried your best.

Or is the world such a corrupt cynical place that this does only apply in utopian places?  As I'm somewhere between play and game these days I find myself prone to this kind of thinking.

Sitting in a room

Thinking of the fact that i don't have anything of great importance to say.  Or something of interest to elaborate on.  Or something curious to investigate.

I'm obviously not only sitting in a room, i must also be trapped within my own ego,
and this is a pain to my self.  I would want to achieve great stuff in this life (and preferably immediately), sitting in my room being inside my own brain doesn't seem to help.

I think i am symptomatic of a lot of people, being egocentric and unable to see beyond ourselves. The question is how to skip out of this and in to an other situation with real spirit and engagement,

Or is it not really natural for a lot of us to see beyond ourselves?  is it maybe what our nature is like, to take care of our surroundings and not so much more?  Is it because i live in a chic big city that i feel the need to mark myself wherever i go?  Would i be a different person if i lived in some rural place?