checking out blogs

Why is there so many blogs out there that wants to teach me/help me having a better life?

It seems this is what everyone feels like writing about.  My opinion is that if i want my life to be better i should become better at communication (i'm really not that great).  I think the way to do that is by practice, not necessarily by reading how other people who are different from me and never met me wants me to think.  DUDE I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE YOUS!  I want to be happy of course, but not all the time.

i also enjoy being grumpy quite a bit.  other people likes it to, they like it when they know my life aint perfect either. 

The helpful bloggers might be ok for some people, but not really so much for me.  I guess i don't really want to read blogs, i'd probably prefer the paper or something with a bit more interesting content. Or just something with content (contrary to for instance my blog, it's more nonsense than anything, and i write it only because it's possible and free (and it would be awesome if there were someone out there who could understand my sense of humor - because the people who do are rare and hard to find) and if i'm incredibly lucky this exact nonsense will become a moneymaking machine so i can ultimately stop working, stop contributing to the society, close myself in an insane solitary situation so i instead of being the total package of a human being i could just be the brain in the tank they always talk about in epistemology class.)

How can i find the interesting blogs?  i guess there should be some at least.



The sad story is that i'm currently looking for interesting stuff everywhere and also in the blogs because there are not enough interesting stuff in my general life.  I'm not certain whether it's actually a depression in my system or if it's simply a lack of the right environment and stimulating people around.  


But even if it's the latter situation it's quite depressing so it's a kind of catch 22.

dancing around in my internet (modern dionysic living)

dancing around in my internet, i'm on a safari, splendid!

fingers flying around my laptop even faster than i can follow, 

switching eight tabs, and different work

all included a little bit of "freespace" blogging and gossiping on fb, 

my friend where is my mind, i outraced it hours ago, now i'm just flying away - further into the web.

How my fb friends kindly insults me.

ye ye,  facebook. i'm so fed up it's not even worth it. (i need facebook for several real reasons - at least i've succeeded in persuading myself that i do)
I'm reading all kinds of crap even worse than this.
But it's worse when some honest soul actually gives an interesting recommendation.   I laugh, and feel nausea in the same moment that i read it, i'm no longer able to take it as a pure-hearted well-meant idea from my perifery "friend" whom i know more through his internet behavior than how he actually is.  (i.e. internet behavior shows how you relate to yourself, real life behavior shows how you interact with other people, which is the quality we traditionally seek knowing about other people.) I take my friends recommendation as AN INSULT.  (rather on the nutty side here...)  It's insulting because i take this as my connections trying to impose on me information (even though really it's good for me, i can use it), they're trying build leverage, THEY are trying to be PERSONALLY the new NEWSPAPER, the INFORMATION CHANNEL, the GOVERNMENT- the decisive powers.  THEIRE SUBJECT IS STRIVING TO BECOME AN OBJECT, AN AUTHORITY, a rock in the society perhaps, SOMETHING I'll have to LEAN UNDER, BEND MY KNEES AND OTHER STUFF FOR:

I TELL YOU; I'm NOT DOING THAT: I CAN'T, I won't, THEY're INSANE! dude.  why is it like this. am i wrong, is it not indeed a "flipped situation" where people seemingly do nice things to enhance and glorify themselves?


maybe it's me who haven't quite adapted to the new know-how, the new language, the way of life in the twothousandsand...

Or am I right? Should i be more active blocking information?  after all it's quite addictive to know "what did he say now", i have to know everything of course.   Maybe it will destroy my soul...

Facebook is a real tool for people who knows how to manipulate other people by targeting their group behaviour tendences. If you can control your group you will very well succeed in anything - even if it's something you really are not the best at.

critics.

I'm critic to the degree of explosion.  Can't even see pretty stuff because of this.

= misantrophe?

why, you ask. Me too. Why?

why do i keep up writing this nonsense which is undoubtably a waste of time for everyone reading.
It might make me feel good or something, as i keep doing it.  Though the real issue is:  can my consciousness be clear while i willingly and knowingly try and capture more and more readers to expose myself by WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME?

Go out and play!

freedom. choises. regrets.

It's absolutely confusing to switch between real and non-real internet identities in only one blink.

In my sleep depraved sense i find myself dissolving.  Plural net-identities and lack of real social life is not really helping.

omg.  i'm a nutcase... -no i'm not, i'm just not really making good choices in this world made of choices.

Would it be any better if i had less freedom?  [rhetorical - who ever is free... but we are now allowed to choose our own entrapment for better and worse.  It is now clear that it is a major drawback to choose unwisely even though nobody knows whats really wise as moral and such is no longer a common ground thought. / what i meant to say was: it's a major drawback not to be able to live the life backwards.]

new layout

i feel renewed (not)
it's more descriptive of the content (bull*)
it will free your spirit and take you for a ride you've never seen before (YEAH THAT'S FOR SURE!)

So keep readin, keep surfin, keep coming back, i'll give you more - equally luscious!

To all my solid fans:  i did this for you, let me know if your heart skipped a beat!

it's all wonderful (waltz + poetry)

when you add the rhythm of a grande waltz!

nothing can stop you then.

Add some great poetry that extracts some sense of the insane chaos the abstract world the words live in, and you might experience the feeling that everything is possible!

then it will pass and everyday misery will catch up with you.

Thanks to Ruben Östlund his film made me think of this, but also of more significant moral stuff which can help me grow as a person.

poetry.

ARE WORDS NO LONGER WORTH ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR INFORMATION?

WHY DON'T WE SWITCH TO BINARY SYSTEM OR SOMETHING?  to better depict the no good for phantasy system inherent in the modern internet communication system?


I READ PEOPLES STATEMENTS; AND, YES, THEY TYPE SMS, ITS NOT CREATIVE, IT'S LAZYNESS!  i want my thought's to be triggered when i read something.  NOT HAVE MY INDIFFERENCE BOOSTED.

(well, i'm obviously not indifferent yet.  though i might be a bit disillusioned)

my apologies

If you are some kind of a soft soul dancing around in honey, swimming in milk and sleeping in a field of flowers, i'm rather embarrassed of my outlet's of frustration and other not so positive emotional states of mind.

I'm not angry anymore.  Though i will be angry again some other day and probably let you know harder that you could imagine.  So, i recommend for you to stay away, maybe by a lamb and nurture it.

what ***# etc (stop reading here!)

I want to know what the fuck you want to know.  What would you like to read?  doesn't anybody enjoy reading?  I want to have a pictureless blog but still have readers!!! after all, even if this seems to be some melodramatic subjective site for procrastination, i still would like to have READERS§§§§

I'M DEFINITIVELY THAT CORRUPTED.  STOP READING, IF YOU'RE NOT ALREADY CORRUPT, ILL MAKE YOU (yes, that is not a real threat.  I'm far to relativistic to even make threats.)

RULES FOR ARTISTS

What are the premises of working artistically?

A.  You need to want to do it

B.  You need to have something to say

C.  If you don't have anything to say you need to explore something?

D.  You want to be famous?

E.  You don't care what anyone thinks of your work

F.  You really care about what people think of your work.

G.  You need to be interesting

H. You need to be charismatic

I.  You need to be able to relate your work to the other expressions of your time

J.  You need to have conections

K.  You need some money

L.  If you're idealistic, go work for some organisation

M.  You need to manipulate people into liking your products.

N.  You have to play your cards right.

O.  You need to set yourself above everyone else.

P.  You need to be right in every assumption

Q.  You need to use your network.  Even the internet.  but mostly the old-fashioned face to face net.  even in internet.

R.   You need to be able to define whats "in" and whats "out" (of course regarding everything but your present work - which of course always is "in"

S.  You might need to stab someone in their soul or in theire friendship.

T.  If you care about diplomacy you're a lost cause.

The framework is closing in on me.