Starting out with some ideal utopia, some genuine wish to make, to create something with the aim of enjoyment for people, or as a reminder of something that seems important.
Next, struggling follow the idea because of the overload of other things needed to be done.
Then when slowly finding the balance of work and art, seeing far away some possibility to do this after all, nature gives you an extraordinary specimen of the opposite sex, which is totally distracting and totally confusing as there is no way to act upon this and still get to do everything in the overcrowded time schedule. But still not acting on this is equally distracting, as there is only two ways to deal with intense attraction. 1. act it out. 2. wait till it passes.
Which one takes the most of you, which gives the most?
The answer is soooooo simple, one should guess, you should act it out instead of just wasting time waiting.
Can I take my own advise? or am i just a coward? or is it some kind of humane consciousness? it is not. I just doesn't know how to move from here.
Why we are here is not the best question. How can we make the best of being here is better. It's also tough to answer.
