Blame game

If you're doing it (the blame game) - stop! and listen to each other.

I'm currently in a situation, it became a blame game. It's not constructive, not solving anything, it's hurtful and crushing and belitteling. And the real solution will come later on. way later. after tonns of worry. so no need to go there...

Good luck!

Integrity?

THIS IS WHO I AM, IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT I'LL ADAPT TO YOUR NEEDS

I was just arresting me for thinking that.

But maybe it ain't all that bad, alltough going all the way is wrong, we know for a fact that compromises make the world spin every day.  Sharing is joy.

pathetique.

Pathetique in real life ain't nowhere near as beautiful as Beethovens. 

So I woke up feeling down. That really depressed me.  And my mind went in a downwards spiral telling me all the argh's about my life.  I don't have a proper job, i don't have a carrear, i don't have a love, i don't dare to express myself, i'm so freakin shy i'll never be able to create a deep relation to somone special, there is someone who has a crush on me but i'm not appreciating it, i'm getting old, my education is worth zip, even i'm too thin and i don't understand anything about life.


I worry to much today.

I've got the bluuuuueeeeeeees.

And. (the rest).

I retarded myself by drinking.  That's why i'm so opposed to drinking. Drinking doesn't help.

SURPRISINGLY AUTHENTIC HUMAN BEINGS

We're all children too, somewhere sometimes.  At least that's how the saying goes.  It's what we think of ourselves when we feel young and irresponsible, able to laugh and invent situations.  Aka when we are happy.

But we ARE happy sometimes, all the childlike traits of our caracter are not a child, it is us! We are able to be happy, to be energetic and young at any age, to laugh and joke about when it suits us, to loose control and live like it's no forever coming..

what's up with editing our behaviour? what's so scary about having fun!

WE ARE!  We exist! Totally, not only partly...  let's not excuse ourselves for living, let's BE SURPRISINGLY AUTHENTIC HUMAN BEINGS!

bad farting.

I find myself wondering "what is it really you are suppose to do when you accidentaly let go some smelly wind in the wrong situation?"  For instance when you're chatting up someone, or just talking to someone, or even - when you are in the swingdors or in the elevator.  First, you hope it not to be a smelly one....

Then, when it just spreads so slowly and linguers on into seemingly infinity - seconds becomes hours and you spend so much energy getting into a state of emotional crisis that you just can't go on with your conversation.  Everybody most probably caught the picture.  And let's be honest, it can last for like a minute or probably even worse.  The time available is abundantly sufficient to do this equation:

That bad smell + your weird face = easy task. 

Then the discovery that everyone discovered your guilt embarrasses you further and the blushing starts to show.  You need to clear your throuth and your eyes flicker all over the place.  You might even raise your voice a tad, hoping the louder sound will disquise the wrong smell.

Do you excuse yourself verbally or just hope everyone forgets so quickly? What if you are only two? how to deal with it then? And why do i keep doing this, i rarely get farted at myself.  It's probably a subversive strategy on some uncouncious level.  Yeah, I'll go with that.  I'm simply mean.

It feels so much better now that i've decided that i know that.

beer or tv?

Whats the better habit;

Staying away from tv by drinking alcohol.
(consequently staying away from reality by being too drunk)

Staying away from reality by watching tv.
(consequently entering reality by making tv persons your real life friend whom you share your joys and sorrows with)

?

So, i guess there are more alternatives, just none of them came to my mind now.  I'm probably broken from alternating beers and tv.