So my friends are enemies to one another. What to do? They are intelligent grown human beings with low self-esteem and a mean way of handeling each other. They both behave irrational, they both can't see the other ones perspective, and neither of them can even imagine a solution.
Yet, they don't erase each others phone number.
I actually think they somewhere deep down love one another. But they've hurt oneanother so intensly and deeply that it's not possible to build a bridge over the very large salty gap between them. At least it's optimistic to think this rather than believing they cling on to one anothers phone numbers to always have someone to throw their shit at, someone to hurt.
It's very sad. And redundant. But still so increadibly real.
And I feel pity for myself for having to handle being in the middle of a unsolvable situation that every now and then crashes and they hurt each other to bits and pieces because the world is to small for them to be able to avoid each other.
I must be the insane one here, thinking this is a problem for me. It is, of course, but that is so far from being the essence of the situation, it's ashaming me to think I'm that selfish. But I too can't really see any solutions here, it's like their disfriendship has become a force majeure in my life that i have to move around like another blizard. And I'm already frozen, can't solve it so I've, with time, got increasingly indifferent. It is sad. And the entire situation very well feels just as unnecessary as sad.
How come we are so damaged that we trap ourselves in perpetually sad, hurtful and unsolvable situations?
Yet, they don't erase each others phone number.
I actually think they somewhere deep down love one another. But they've hurt oneanother so intensly and deeply that it's not possible to build a bridge over the very large salty gap between them. At least it's optimistic to think this rather than believing they cling on to one anothers phone numbers to always have someone to throw their shit at, someone to hurt.
It's very sad. And redundant. But still so increadibly real.
And I feel pity for myself for having to handle being in the middle of a unsolvable situation that every now and then crashes and they hurt each other to bits and pieces because the world is to small for them to be able to avoid each other.
I must be the insane one here, thinking this is a problem for me. It is, of course, but that is so far from being the essence of the situation, it's ashaming me to think I'm that selfish. But I too can't really see any solutions here, it's like their disfriendship has become a force majeure in my life that i have to move around like another blizard. And I'm already frozen, can't solve it so I've, with time, got increasingly indifferent. It is sad. And the entire situation very well feels just as unnecessary as sad.
How come we are so damaged that we trap ourselves in perpetually sad, hurtful and unsolvable situations?
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